The past few weeks before this was posted up here
I was trying to get to know to someone new, that would possible be my partner
I got one, this was a person that attracted me with smile
No reason, but attracted.
Trying a few ways to get through and to be contacted
Of course I did it eventually
The person's appearances was attracted me, and the deep inside is good... very good
I could say that the most self-defense-less person that i knew
since that we knew only each other for only few days...
But after talking for few days, I was realized that things happened to be too fast
and I was realized that I was getting know to another 'sibling' instead of 'partner'
Of course I pull out everything eventually
I hate things to be messy, I have so much of things to worry
and I looking for a person that could take good self care even without helping on me
I do not like that all things has to push to one side that make a burden to another person
after being together
I would really like to share my everything to my partner
I would really do whatever that my partner asking to
Only in the way that, we take things equally, not dependent always to the other partner
I really will give anything as long I could
I really will do everything as long I should
But in the sense that, make me feel "I willing to"
What I believe in relationship is, "I do"
These words, this sentence make happiness
Everything that I giving is not forcing,
everything that I receiving is all in "I wish to"
"I can take care of myself, and I'm not looking for anyone to taking care of me
I looking for a partner not a mother"
This is what I always holding while I expecting or meeting someone.
P/S : Bluffing passage, just spill out all here...
