Sunday, May 19, 2013

纯粹的发泄

"The earth does not stop turning, if without you." said by one of my friend
that inspired by unknown.
Yes! It is true, for the me I was.
Your leaving do make my world stop turning
Brain, Thoughts, Emotions...

It stops at when you are still with me
keep replaying the scene that I love to
Perhaps sweet, but hurts

I cannot move my concern from you
Although my eyes and words are saying 
"I'm not going to say, think, care of you anymore."
but my will do care.
Concerning who you being with
Concerning what are you doing

Don't ask me why I fall in love to you and why I'm acting this way
This is also the question that I'm wondering
You seems attractive to anyone else
But what they said, it does not apply to me
Not you are not attractive to me
It just not that way they said.

Everyday I have to make myself busy
to stop my brain to think of you even once
Belived that the time will bring me a new fresh life
turn me into a new empty page that to be written on

But it seems not working
Sometimes even a small incident
It triggers back the memories,
Pulled back all the scene that been through.
Then it crashed my day again
It used a while for me to clean this “sh*t”, stay calm
and reminding myself not to fall in love to someone anymore
because it really hurts

Now, I rather single than looking for someone
Because the feels of breaking heart is hurts
Yup, I am losing confidence in myself
I have no good look, lack of confidence, afraid and ashamed to know new friends
So Cupid does not bless in me

Just call me a coward 
Because I'm not dare to take a risk
To tell you that "I love you"
Call me an idiot 
Because I miss you
Without letting you know
Hurts self badly
Pretending nothing in front of the crowd.
Yup, that is me.

** Inspired by the movie: "Were the World Mine"