I've took a month of leave
For mind clearance before proceeding to my whole new life
The another stage of my life
During this month, I had finally found myself out
The one that always staying in the confusion
But while the way of searching and looking
The more answer I got, the more chaotic my mind is
Repeating those movies that I got my answer from
Watch over and over again...
Don't ask why, I had no any idea why I'm doing this
Soap Opera is the word that I never thought that I will touch in my life
It seems meaningless to me previously
The first Soap Opera that I watched surprisingly was a Germany Soap Opera - Verbotene Liebe
The stories inside telling me that to preserve a long term relationship are to confess their secret
and most important to be faithful to his/her partner
But the question came to my mind after watching the movie is "Is faithfulness still exist in a relationship?"
Question Remained Unanswered
From the recommended video by the channel that I watching
I found the second "Soap Opera" that attracted me and quite surprise also
A Spanish TV Series - Física o Química
The story setting was in a high school that telling the story of the students in a school
How relationship end and how another starts
How regret is while losing someone that loved you or in love with
The most thing I got in this drama is "Learnt to cherish, only while something is lost"
This two drama re-messed up my mind so much
That should I choose what I had chosen
I can't just simply get what I want in my life
The consequences coming are not as easy as I expect
Should or shouldn't is the question that I always asking
I really really scared that I had missed a chance or an option
But I also scared that the choice I'd picked would hurt the people I use to care around me
Throughout the month, I realized something
But also had messed up everything
Its a lucky month for me? or a bad month for me?
A good choice to take a rest? or A bad choice to make myself free for thinking?
