Ridiculous Night

Its been long time that I couldn't sleep just because of thinking
Especially 'you' that I was always talking
The thought was seems calm and silent until yesterday night
A dream that you had appeared unexpectedly and had accompanied throughout

This makes me starting to think that 'Do I really getting over this someone'
That I always telling myself I could stay calm when this someone standing in front of me
I could talk and act as like as how I'm dealing with others
But it seems fake and wrong after this dream

"Hey, I do really miss you
I do really miss the feel that surrounded by you
Although least but still" - at least I admit now

This ridiculous night together with a movie that I had been watch over and over
Triggered that deep down feeling
and start to ask question to Tarot cards and I seems trusting it more than trusting myself

An insomnia night is always a nightmare for me
A happening, real time nightmare that having some uncommon thoughts
Starting to think of the mess that no one would thinking of
Think of someone that thought that I could get over with
Think of the only memories of anything, something, everything

Someone could suggest some ways to help
To make me really get over with this someone
The person that I really thinking of so long time and never been seen in a while
HEY?? ANY IDEA??

I am really scare that I diving too deep until that it hurt back myself
And what I got was just nothing but desperate
Or should I just tell to this someone How I feel and let the answer found from the action that returned?
IS Stubborn a sign of Capricon?