Comparing the "myself" before and after meeting you
I had a conclusion that, I'm not as strong as previously
I could not withstand any extra stress, or pressure from outside to inside of me
As like the song by Westlife - "Fragile Heart"
This song has been my “Title song" as my friends said
Who know what is happening in me
It is true,
The changes in me is, I become more fragile than before
Cause I could not withstand stress anymore
I'm not blaming anyone that make my heart "fragile"
Just I've got a "stone heart" since my father took away my important thing
But, you're the next person that could turn "it" fragile
As fragile as it will break even a single light touch
I started to cover my real self from the outside world
Do not even expose it anyone anymore
Because I am also confusing in myself on what I looking for
My world had totally messed up
Till that I had never seen before
I could even stop thinking and responding in some important occasions
The shadows of things that I do not wish to think of
Suddenly pushing up from the bottom of my mind
Few times in the night
I hardly to fall asleep just because of the messed up mind
Now, I barely cannot accept who am I
The unfamiliar one, that I don't even understand
Sometimes, I was thinking that I was making the scar bleed again
While try to figure out the answer to these questions in my mind
This is the consequences of stepping into the region of should not be in
The region that a friend and a friend should not stepping into
The region that someone others would hardly thought that I would fell into
Feeling strange?! Even I do.
Hesitating in front of few doors that leading to different life
“Friend", I am glad to know you and glad to place you in my special place in my heart
I will not regret to do this
For me you deserve it.
Till now, the things that I knew is this unfamiliar me appears not because of you
Is because I wish to take another further step to you
But I could not stand with the consequences of this little footstep
That could even break our friendship.
WISH ME LUCK to discover this unfamiliar me,
ending this endless game that hurting myself,
Stop me from crying in no tears while in the midnight.
"To mend this fragile heart."(Westlife, Fragile Heart)
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