纯粹的发泄

"The earth does not stop turning, if without you." said by one of my friend

that inspired by unknown.

Yes! It is true, for the me I was.

Your leaving do make my world stop turning

Brain, Thoughts, Emotions...

It stops at when you are still with me

keep replaying the scene that I love to

Perhaps sweet, but hurts

I cannot move my concern from you

Although my eyes and words are saying 

"I'm not going to say, think, care of you anymore."

but my will do care.

Concerning who you being with

Concerning what are you doing

Don't ask me why I fall in love to you and why I'm acting this way

This is also the question that I'm wondering

You seems attractive to anyone else

But what they said, it does not apply to me
Not you are not attractive to me
It just not that way they said.

Everyday I have to make myself busy

to stop my brain to think of you even once

Belived that the time will bring me a new fresh life

turn me into a new empty page that to be written on

But it seems not working

Sometimes even a small incident

It triggers back the memories,

Pulled back all the scene that been through.

Then it crashed my day again

It used a while for me to clean this “sh*t”, stay calm

and reminding myself not to fall in love to someone anymore

because it really hurts

Now, I rather single than looking for someone
Because the feels of breaking heart is hurts

Yup, I am losing confidence in myself

I have no good look, lack of confidence, afraid and ashamed to know new friends
So Cupid does not bless in me

Just call me a coward 

Because I'm not dare to take a risk

To tell you that "I love you"

Call me an idiot 

Because I miss you

Without letting you know

Hurts self badly

Pretending nothing in front of the crowd.

Yup, that is me.

** Inspired by the movie: "Were the World Mine"